Don't waste your time or Time will waste you...

I love this song from Muse, its called Knights of Cydonia

Come ride with me through the veins of history
I'll show you a god who falls asleep on the job

How can we win when fools can be kings?
Don't waste your time or time will waste you

No one is gonna take me alive
The time has come to make things right
You and I must fight for our rights
You and I must fight to survive

So, come ride with me through the veins of history, look at all the things we have done for them. Look at all the things they have done against us! We protected them when they were weak. And when people came after us, they helped the invaders and someone else came to help us. Then the someone promised freedom and we helped them to get it, then they claim all the credit and took advantage of everything single thing they could. When everything was done because of us, they rob us of our pride, our dignity and our achievements. So I would like to ask you, do you see hope in what you are doing now? You are complaining so much, writing songs making videos posting to Facebook and Youtube showing us what they are doing to you and indirectly to us. We already know, we do not need you to put salt on our wounds, remind us of all the pain we have been suffering!

The God that has been asleep on the job... I am not sure about this but like the Bible always say, God has His timing... after so many years we have seen nothing but death of our people, death of other people. But didn't the people of Israel waited 40 years? Let's just be calm and wait... wait and see...

How can we win when fools can be kings? Good question, revolution will come many said. I do not see one coming, neither do I see the need of one. In history, Kings rule the nation but they no longer do because of some reason, so the 'king' here refers to? We all know what the 'king' refers to. We are loyal and respect the King but not the 'king'. Why? because we must respect the King and they deserve to be respected. so why do we not respect the 'king'? because some of them don't even know English and some barely pass their O-levels. How the F are they going to run a country with a O-levels cert?

Don't waste your time or time will waste you... How many generations of people have raised up to oppose them? how many have succeeded? I can't calculate the number that did oppose them but I can tell you none of them have ever succeed. So why waste time? Stop wasting time or it will waste you just like it wasted so many people already... you are still young and you are a good song writer. Don't waste you life.

No one is gonna take me alive. They don't give a shit. They can't kill you now because everyone knows who are you and they can't find a thing to get you with. But if they wanted they would just kill me and not a single person will know. They are not humans anymore. They will do anything to protect their purse.

The time has come to make things right, You and I must fight for our rights, You and I must fight to survive. It is time to acknowledge and understand that we no longer have rights here and there is no point fighting for it. Do you know Zimbrawee? It was never a good country but then the Brits slowly gave them some things... and then they kick the Brits out and look at them know. So we should kick our selves out.

They go around shouting at us saying that we never repay them and everything that they have done for us asking us to look into history about everything they have done for us.

I tell you the truth, they have done NOTHING for us... therefore we need to repay them NOTHING. NOTHING AT ALL. I am a Christian, and God told me to bless my enemies. SO I bless them and will just say good bye to them. I pray that God bring justice here ASAP. because no matter what, slow justice is still justice.

How much it hurts when a friend stab you in the back???

Dear Snow,

i like to think and imagine a lot... maybe think too much some times... but yes... i thought too much again... suspected something.

not sure how to actually say it but i just feel like releasing so stress that it all store in me.... just saw your status on facebook which kind of shock me... crying over the phone... would say this is the first time you actually cried? how shocking to see such a joyful girl breakdown... you seems lost for once...

happiness? what is that? being happy is to feel good about something that goes your way... happiness comes from many source and yes it certainly comes from friends. you are happy when things happen your way when you spend time with your friends... however, it is also undeniable that friends are the result to most of your miseries too...

hate and jealousy are always the first thing that result in friends 'betraying' each other... she was your best friend since primary school? I was shock that she actually did it too... but then Snow, a true best friend relationship takes an impossible among of time to form but just a single second to completely destroy it... you believe and was confidence that she took you as one of your best friends... but then... maybe she didnt?

you know, recently a lecturer just talk to me about Chinese. He told me that from his experience of living in Malaysia and other Asia countries, he learn that most Chinese only be friend people whom they can take advantage or gain from. Therefore rich people have a lot of 'friends'. From my point of view, he is very very right. I believe that more than 80% of us behave that way most of the time.

You need to understand that even if you treated her so good she might have had that jealousy since a long time ago... this are things that you will never know... there are people who will just clearly show you that they dislike you and wouldnt even mind being your enemy... we dont mind about them... just let them be... but it is those that hide their feelings that we are afraid of...

I can imagine how much it could have hurt you when she said that to you, I just found out something today too, i guess God kind of wanted me to know it because it was a complete coincidence that I was able to find out about that. I thank Him for letting me know it before hand instead of knowing it after everything happen and I thank Sir Lee Stanfield for spending so much time with you after the incident just to make sure you dont lose yourself... but Snow, you are a big girl know... it is time to grow up and know that people aren't as innocent as they always were. there are good and there are bad people... and we cant always tell so there are times when you must just let it go...

one last thing, how could you even think so killing yourself? if i would have been there when you said that I would have slapped you in the face in front of everybody regardless of whatever you were going through. DO you have any idea how many people look up to you because of who you are and what you have accomplished? just to remind you something that I myself often forget and I myself have to change... of course i do know that you are a much stronger Christian than I am but Snow, whatever friends in this world and maybe even family members in some extreme cases might just turn around and stabbed you right in the back and push you off the cliff but one thing i can assure you, your Father in heaven wont.

take care and get well soon girl,

Dar Dar

Is This Right?

Before coming to US, I wanted to tell her... but then Jacky suggested me not to... and Ida went on to tell him about it... Regret? Not very sure, seriously, I didn't know whether or not it was a good idea at all... I wasn't even sure how much my love for her can bring our relationship?

Jacky always say I think too much about the future and I should just try it out sometimes... Of course we have very good examples of that in UNMC... But then, I still think that I should respect and care for a girl that I like right? Final decision was to not express my feelings to her. Right before I board the plane, I sms her telling her I was leaving and that I would miss her a lot, hoping and dreaming that she would think of me occasionally.

In US, I kept thinking about her, logging on to MSN hoping she would be online, considerably spamming her Facebook... Even thought of calling her in some occasions... I knew I was getting a little crazy.

But then Jacky told me, if I lose my mind about her, then the relationship is as good as over. He said not to disturb her too much. And yes I agree that I might be disturbing her a little too much...

Jacky and Jing Yang enjoyed the company of the China girls but not me, I prefer to stay in my dorm and online, still hoping to catch her online... once in awhile. But then, she never reply me on Facebook, can't find her on MSN. It just makes me feel sad or maybe just down...

Then I met Elton on Skype, talked about this, he told me, if she is ignoring you then maybe it is time to forget about her.

And I saw someone who had a GF going around trying to get a few more...

And Jacky told me, it is about time I stop being Super Mr Nice Guy in such situations and just forget about it and move on... He told me, that I might be waiting for her but she might have already got another one...

Then Ida told me she is starting to lose her feelings for Willis... The last person I expected to tell me this.

Then there was this Taiwan girl, older than I was... and seriously, I guess everyone knew I would never take this up...

She was sweet and caring in many ways. Like a elder sister to me... because I was the youngest of all the internationals I guess...

But then we went on as good friends and jokingly I called her 妈咪... and she called me 儿子...

As time past, people started to think that we weren't just normal friends.

Then one of her friends asked me, 'Are you 2 together? Or are you 2 seriously just friends? because it doesn't seems so...'

Then Jacky asked me, '你喜欢她啊？' My reaction was to remind him that she is older than I am and Jacky immediately reply, '是时候改掉你那个想法了！' seriously? this does not help me at all.

And one day, her friend started talking to me about this age and relationship thing... -____-... JACKY!!!

I was still rejecting it but then, the more she talks about it the more I give in and that wasn't good i guess...

people around me started to support me to bring the relationship to a second level and holy cow, what am I suppose to do?

I want to know that this relationship/bond between me and her isn't a misunderstood relationship... and I don't know, I am just completely confused!!!

Football

Erm... not a very interesting thing for some people but I have been wondering why she is so mad that I like football so much?

What is the problem with the game?

I like watching and playing it just to forget about things that trouble me... because when I watch and play I forget about those things for awhile... gives me sometime to relax and that is wrong?

So ya, I spent money of football I agree and maybe a little too much?

What about people who turn to beer? smoking? drinking? clubbing and all those? that don't need money?

At least I don't do those things and you should be happy right?

or am I wrong?

I hate You Jesus

I have no idea why but a lot of people hate You just like You told Peter that people will hate us because they first hate You...

But now I indirectly hate You and the only person that wouldn't get mad because I hate You is You because now, You might be the only person that understand me... and If I was still in JB Pastor Ben would be outside my house within minutes after he reads this, but I don't care, because I know and You know what I mean...

Basically, I hate You for doing everything so indirectly and yet that is a good thing because You know that is the best and maybe only way this hard headed A hole can learn a lesson...

Many things happened today, good and bad and I know it is because of You because You planned everything for me and the people around me... using people around me to help me learn but then these kind of things are things that You know I can't take but must learn to accept... Yes Lord I hate You... XD

You knew why a hate them and went I got here You gave me a Supervisor that was just like them, slow and inefficient. Marcus changed me around with other supervisors and then today I got back to her again. Amazingly she improved, picked up English, worked much faster compared to last time, willingness to learn and listen. You changed her to shut me up and alright You win, she improved a lot and I should learn from her and yes I just don't know how to put this but You just know I hate to do this but when I see these kind of situation I will always force myself to learn...

how many times have You did this to me? I'm not sure but I know I'm not liking it but I know it is good for me...

So, yes I hate You for loving me so much... Thank You.

I love Kids...

Hurt my ankle that day so had to work only as Ride Control... super boring... but get to talk with many guest and also over heard their conversations... and I notice that kids are actually more adorable than I have ever imagine... their words can be extremely EVIL!!! or very FUNNY!!! and sometimes there will be a few that are just so SWEET!!!

I was at a ride called the Downhill Racer where up to four people can slide down a fast and considered aggressive slide competing with each other. The trick is to get as much air time as possible to go faster... and I heard all these...... XP

the EVILness in KIDS!

1.
"Mum, if I win you must buy me the Texan Dippin Dots ok?" [It is a type of Ice Cream sold in the park and Texan is the size which is the biggest!]

"But you have to beat me first!"

"OK, I sure I am going to win since I don't have as much fat as you do..." (boy)

2.
"Faster grandpa! I'm going to miss the ride!"

The grandpa looks at me... "Lots of stairs!" I smiled at him. He looks at his granddaughter and said "this is the last time ok?"

"NO! Mummy call me to stay with you and asked you to looked after me! SO YOU MUST LISTEN TO ME!" she screamed as a few guest around her laughed.

3.
There was a pretty fat guy in front of this girl and she look at him and told her mum...

"Mummy, can I change slides with you?"

"Why?"

"I'm scare my will fall after he use it... Please?"

the FUNNYness in KIDS

1.
A girl came up with her father... as I opened the gates, she saw the slide and started crying "Daddy it's so scary! I don't want to go on it! I don't want to go on it! Ahhhhhh...." she went down, then she cried all the way back up and went down with her dad again... after three times she was still crying... by the end of the day she did the slide 7 times... all crying and screaming "it's so scary! I don't want to go on it!"

2.
A girl came up to the slide and beside her was another girl...

"Can you let me win? Because I always win so can you let me win please?"

The other girl node and when I open the gate the girl seriously waited for her to go first before she went on the slide to let her win... Amazingly both girls were very happy and they did it a few times... =.=...[I guess one of them enjoyed winning and the other enjoyed losing?]

3.
"Mummy! The slides look very scary... I don't want to do it anymore let's go down ok?"

"Just try it, you might like it (her name)"

"I wouldn't!"

"How do you know before you try it?"

"because this slide is for big people only..."

the SWEETness in KIDS

there was this boy that caught my attention a lot... he was... extremely innocent I would say, curiosity brought him up with his mum but when he saw the slides he got scare and the following conversation will show you why this boy is outstanding among the rest of the kids I heard today.

"Mum, I think it is too scary for me." He looked very worried.

"Oh... I came all the way up here already, why don't you give it a try?"

He sat on the sliding mat and as the gate opened he looked down the slide and stood up and told his mum "I'm sorry mum, it is too scary I don't want to do it."

His mum got up looking a little disappointed and took his mat up...

Then he looked at his mum and said "I'm sorry mum, if you really want to do it you can go on I will walk down myself."

"Who's going to look after you then?"

"Then I will go with you..."

"But you're scare right?"

"Yup, but I will try it..."

"It's ok boy. come on, let's go down." She carried him up and started walking down.

"I'm sorry mum."

"It's ok"

"I'm sorry" and he kiss her, "Thank you for loving me so much mum"

This conversation caused the line to become very long... XD... everyone stood there listening to the little boy and no one required them to move aside for them to get down the slide first... everyone just look on... to this amazing boy...

And now for the funny part... XD

at this spot, I will push a button to open the gate and the people jump down the slide... so... they were always looking at my finger and not the gate, they will just jump right after seeing me press the button... So, i was wondering if I pressed the button without releasing the lock the gate will not open, but will they jump? XD muahahahahaha.... I am so EVIL!!!

From KLIA to TEXAS

from Jacky's house to KLIA his mum sounded pretty worried about him... not that we don't know why... XP but then... yes Jacky was leaving for 4 months just like the 3 of us and his youngest brother could hardly accept it.

THe flight from KLIA to Taipei was too boring... it took 4 hours. I went up, watched a movie... Confucious.. forgot how to spell. XD... then makan not sure is dinner or lunch... then down to Taipei!!! XD

in Taipei... we were doing something damn FUN!!! we were DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING DREAMING and DREAMING.

then after awhile found cheap food... so we ate.... XD 12am... went on plane to LA!!!

on the plane, as usual, the first thing Jacky did was... KAP LUI... he checked all the "waitress"... and wow... one was pretty cute... and Thai Girl... XD... and the best thing was... she was serving our lane tim! XP...

haiz... but then... talk about girl then think of Michelle then... GG.com.MY... tak payah tidur le... watched a movie... from Paris with love... then makan... then kept thinking of her... everyone slept... i couldn't so just listen to music and think of my pretty Michelle and then... morning le... makan breakfast and sampai LA...

got stuck at because of VISA... then after about 2 hours... got pass everything came out... makan McD... and then we know why America of advance while Malaysia is like... no need to say la;... we all know.. XP... all the McD burger got PORK BACON!!! HOLY PORK!!! so damn nice!!!

then went Terminal 1 they slept on the chair from 12am to 5am (a very boring 5 hours)... and then from LAX makan McD again then go Pheonix... in Pheonix finally got to online... then we went to Texas and here we are... in Schlitterbahn!!!

will UPDATE ASAP!!! new photoes on FACEBOOK too!

USA Trip!!!

Count down to US trip... 15 hours now... (was 16 but no longer!)

Haiz... Going to US tommorrow... XD

Lolz,y iz thre a sigh thre..u shd b hapi. [But I miss you ma T^T, if I stay in M'sia can SMS or MSN with u... US... can't le]
Besides its smthng u wnna do. Hmm,i guess i shd wish u all d best thre n err, enjoy d exprnces u r abt ti gain (^^,) [yeah... i can't really enjoy the 'exprnces' of missing you so much T^T]
Oh ya, n hv a safe trip thre as well.

Ha ha... Thanks. I guess i will miss you a lot... XP

[no reply T^T]

then I went to the Facebook post... XP...
http://www.facebook.com/#!/athurun?v=wall&story_fbid=123922084306875

haiz... but the point it yes... Jacky asked me... 'Why you love Michelle so much?'

Good question... i always forget to ask myself this...

When i first met you, i tot you were just my average girl type of friend...

then i broke up and i kinda got attracted by Xiao Han 'cuteness'... which i think a lot of people tot i wanted to learn basketball for her... maybe, but i don't really think so.... but then, I couldn't and i didn't try to know her more and so i decided to gave up because of some of her characteristics that i am not ready to get use to...

but then, you came into the picture and I couldn't resist it at all...

A girl that like football? and even better, Chelsea? and even Frank Lampard? Oh my goodness, I was amaze... and F1 was something i could get use to... and you hate horror movies... and yes i hate them too... and it is also because of my wonderful imagination which i sometime kinda love it... XP

even when I found out you didn't know a single instrument I never change my mind, you don't know chinese which makes things worst because these are some of the things I usually looked for, Music, Chinese, Football(very hard).

but then, I was still attracted to you Michelle.

I don't know why... so then I sat aside and think... why? this is based on my point of view...

You like football, unlike most girls.

You like F1, unlike most girls.

You hate horror, unlike most girls.

You like House, unlike most girls.

You are kind and loving and yet still lovely, unlike most girls.

and then suddenly i know why I love you so very much Michelle and not like any other girl, the answer to why I LOVE YOU comes from you... I love you because, you always tell me...

"JJ, I am not your average girl..."

And because of that, I love you Michelle... really... I will miss you when I am in US... hope you miss me too... T^T

JOGOYA.

foundation kias went to makan after the whole long exam period... XD... best time of the year i guess.... of the foundation year... XD

first of all lazy to upoload pictures to describe slowly la... haiz... not much time at jacky house also.... very bs preparing to go US...

haha.... we arrived there, walked around the place after paying RM89.70... T^T... so XXX...

then found a lot of good stuff to makan!

IDA!!! i know you are reading! the pictures of the food are purely meant to bully you... XP

everyone went around taking food and ordering specially cooked food...

the only one who didn't was Pick Sheng!!!

HE HAD AN EVIL PLAN!!!

he sat at the first few seats of the long long table... went our food came, if was sent to the first table and he just took it and eat...

so all our food either came in half the proportion or completely disappear all thanks to the KS pro PICK SHENG!!!

then Say Chong got drunk... while Gaston got crazy about the ice creamm.... XP...

everyone was a bit of crazy here and there...

to me... so few people turned up... there were a lot of people missing from the pictures in facebook.... we forgot a lot of poeple too!!! XP...

then at the end of the day, Jing Yang took some japanese green bean mixed it with chinese tea and some kind of alcohol and me, willis him and chee hao drank a cup to see who was the slowest and had to drink that weird cup of thingy down...

too bad... i lost... it wasn't too bad... at least i didn't vomited or something... XD

ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAYS GUYS!!!