How much it hurts when a friend stab you in the back???

Dear Snow,

i like to think and imagine a lot... maybe think too much some times... but yes... i thought too much again... suspected something.

not sure how to actually say it but i just feel like releasing so stress that it all store in me.... just saw your status on facebook which kind of shock me... crying over the phone... would say this is the first time you actually cried? how shocking to see such a joyful girl breakdown... you seems lost for once...

happiness? what is that? being happy is to feel good about something that goes your way... happiness comes from many source and yes it certainly comes from friends. you are happy when things happen your way when you spend time with your friends... however, it is also undeniable that friends are the result to most of your miseries too...

hate and jealousy are always the first thing that result in friends 'betraying' each other... she was your best friend since primary school? I was shock that she actually did it too... but then Snow, a true best friend relationship takes an impossible among of time to form but just a single second to completely destroy it... you believe and was confidence that she took you as one of your best friends... but then... maybe she didnt?

you know, recently a lecturer just talk to me about Chinese. He told me that from his experience of living in Malaysia and other Asia countries, he learn that most Chinese only be friend people whom they can take advantage or gain from. Therefore rich people have a lot of 'friends'. From my point of view, he is very very right. I believe that more than 80% of us behave that way most of the time.

You need to understand that even if you treated her so good she might have had that jealousy since a long time ago... this are things that you will never know... there are people who will just clearly show you that they dislike you and wouldnt even mind being your enemy... we dont mind about them... just let them be... but it is those that hide their feelings that we are afraid of...

I can imagine how much it could have hurt you when she said that to you, I just found out something today too, i guess God kind of wanted me to know it because it was a complete coincidence that I was able to find out about that. I thank Him for letting me know it before hand instead of knowing it after everything happen and I thank Sir Lee Stanfield for spending so much time with you after the incident just to make sure you dont lose yourself... but Snow, you are a big girl know... it is time to grow up and know that people aren't as innocent as they always were. there are good and there are bad people... and we cant always tell so there are times when you must just let it go...

one last thing, how could you even think so killing yourself? if i would have been there when you said that I would have slapped you in the face in front of everybody regardless of whatever you were going through. DO you have any idea how many people look up to you because of who you are and what you have accomplished? just to remind you something that I myself often forget and I myself have to change... of course i do know that you are a much stronger Christian than I am but Snow, whatever friends in this world and maybe even family members in some extreme cases might just turn around and stabbed you right in the back and push you off the cliff but one thing i can assure you, your Father in heaven wont.

take care and get well soon girl,

Dar Dar