My Whole Life...

My whole life I have been facing difficulties again and again... Life is difficult but then isn't there a break or something?!?

Failures after failures and those brainless idiots says failure is the first step before success comes but for my whole life I have only been facing failures and where is the success??? No where to be found!!!

May I ask You something? because not that I am ungrateful for everything You have done for me but, can You bless me more?

They told me that believing in You is the right thing to do and I am very sure that it is You that i want to believe in but then, they told me that You bless your people and I really hope that You can bless me a little more just slightly more!

I results were never ever good, and I mean seriously never, but then the official exams always comes out better than anyone ever imagined which i thank You a lot for!

But then, i never do good in anything i try to do!

my musics are never good... i only know them, can You give me more?

my results are never even near to average! can You at least give me average?

my life is one of the most boring one around! I don't get along well with people and You know that! I am very sure You know that so can You help?!?

i feel like my life is completely not in order, nothing i try to do ever give me any good result!

i can't play football nicely! i try to pick up basketball but the injuries just never stop coming!

i can't even get a fit body! how hard have i tried to go to the gyms, exercise till my body sugar level goes below normal level...

i can't even please a girl! what have i done that You are doing all these to me?

i just want a girl friend which everyone around me is having... i have tried over and over again but You will never along one to be happy!

You wouldn't let me play musics nicely,

You wouldn't let me play football nicely,

You wouldn't let me play basketball nicely,

You wouldn't let me build a fit body,

You wouldn't let me do good in my studies,

You wouldn't let me let along with people,

You wouldn't let me taste success,

You wouldn't let me get the girl i like,

and now, You wouldn't let me SLEEP!!!

What on EARTH do YOU want me to do!!! When everything i try goes down to the ground without a single sight of success?!?!?